Ayahuasca may help you achieve a deep sense of inner peace and acceptance. Zapata found this to be true. “I was carrying so much guilt and anxiety from my tours in Afghanistan,” she recalls. “Aya helped me confront those feelings head-on. I finally faced the memories that haunted me every night, and for the first time in years, I felt a sense of peace and acceptance. I wasn’t a bad person for being afraid. That’s a normal human emotion, especially when you’re in real danger. Understanding that let me accept myself as what I am: a survivor.”

During ayahuasca experiences, you may have an opportunity to enhance your sense of self-compassion. Research from the Imperial College London suggests that psychedelics like ayahuasca can help reduce the default mode network’s activity, which is associated with self-referential thinking and rumination. In some cases, individuals with certain conditions, like depression and anxiety, may spend inordinate amounts of time being highly self-critical. By reducing the activity in the DMN, psychedelics may help them break out of these patterns. “I realized I had been my own worst critic,” Melissa says. “The ceremony showed me how to be kinder to myself. I learned to forgive myself for not being perfect and to see my struggles as part of my journey, not as failures. Once you understand that, you can pick yourself up again. That’s a distinct memory from my experience, I saw my family telling me, ‘It’s okay, we love you. When we fall, we don’t stay down. We get back up and keep trying.’”⁽¹⁾

Another study titled Self Unbound: Ego Dissolution in Psychedelic Experience explores a common experience during an ayahuasca ceremony, which is a sense of interconnectedness with the universe. This feeling can lead to a profound appreciation for your unique role in the larger tapestry of life. “For the first time, I felt like I was part of something bigger,” Melissa shares. “I saw how my actions, pain, and healing were all connected to a larger story. This helped me appreciate my own life and the lives of those around me in a completely new way. Part of the message I received was to stop holding my family at arm’s length. I have an Abuela who loves me so much, and so do my mom and dad, and my sister. None of us are ever really alone, even if it feels like that sometimes.”⁽²⁾

Ayahuasca can help you identify and release negative thought patterns and behaviors. A study in the journal Frontiers in Pharmacology highlighted how ayahuasca can lead to significant improvements in mental health by allowing you to confront and process deep-seated emotional issues. “I saw all the destructive habits I had picked up over the years,” says Melissa. “From my drinking problem to pushing people away, ayahuasca helped me see them clearly and gave me the strength to start letting those bad habits go while embracing new ways to cope with things. Instead of drinking, I write. Instead of running away from a problem, I confront it. Instead of staying away from my loved ones, I try to find as much time as possible to spend with them.”⁽³⁾

Heightened self-awareness may be a key benefit of ayahuasca experiences. One study, titled The Therapeutic Effects of Ayahuasca: Possible Effects Against the Diseases of Civilization, indicates that ayahuasca can help you gain insights into your true desires, values, and purpose. “The ceremony helped me rediscover parts of myself I had long forgotten,” Melissa notes. “I came out of it knowing what I really valued and wanted out of life. It gave me a new sense of direction and purpose. I didn’t want to hide from myself and the world anymore or drink my life away. I want to be part of everything, and now I know I can be.”⁽⁴⁾

Ayahuasca has the potential to facilitate deep emotional healing, which is crucial for self-love. Studies, such as those by the Beckley Foundation, demonstrate that ayahuasca can help you process and heal from past traumas. “I faced some of the darkest memories of my life,” Melissa admits. “But through that, I found the girl I used to be. The one that played in the rain and made mud pies with her sister. The girl who chased geckos and brought home bugs to show her parents. That is who I really am. I began to understand that, yes, my PTSD and anxiety are problems, but they aren’t me, and they don’t have to define me.”^(2, 3)

Ayahuasca often enhances your feelings of gratitude and presence. Research published in the journal Psychological Medicine found that participants who used psychedelics reported increased feelings of gratitude and a deeper appreciation for the present moment. “I used to be so caught up in the past and worried about the future,” Melissa explains. “Ayahuasca helped me to appreciate the present moment. Instead of focusing my attention on the past, and always looking backward, I feel grateful for the little things in life again.”⁽⁴⁾

Unlocking your creative potential is another way ayahuasca can foster self-love. A study from the University of California, Santa Cruz, showed that psychedelics can enhance creative thinking and problem-solving skills. In Zapata’s case, this manifested in a return to her artistic roots from childhood. “I started painting and writing again after my ceremony,” Melissa reveals. “Ayahuasca opened up a creative side of me that I had shut down. It was a way to express my feelings and connect with myself on a deeper level. Instead of leaning on alcohol or partying for relief, I write about the things that inspire me, I tell myself and my family stories, I paint how I feel instead of drinking not to feel.”⁽⁵⁾

Ayahuasca has the potential to diminish the ego, allowing you to see yourself beyond societal labels and judgments. One study, titled Self Unbound: Ego Dissolution in Psychedelic Experiences, indicated that ayahuasca can reduce activity in the brain regions associated with the ego, helping you break free from limiting self-concepts. “I had built up so many walls around myself,” says Melissa. “Ayahuasca helped me see past those walls. I realized that my worth wasn’t tied to my achievements or failures. I learned to love myself for who I am, not what I have done or failed to do.”⁽⁶⁾

For many, ayahuasca facilitates a profound spiritual connection or awakening. Studies, such as those conducted by the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine, have shown that psychedelics can lead to mystical-type experiences that provide a sense of unity and love from a higher power or the universe. “I felt a connection to something greater than myself,” Melissa reflects. “When you leave the military, you lose a sense of camaraderie and connection to something bigger than you. Ayahuasca was a deeply spiritual experience that made me feel loved and accepted. More importantly, I felt like I had an active place in a greater whole again. We, humans, the plants and animals, the spirit that lives in all of us and everything, it’s connected. You’re connected. Aya helped me see my worth and place in the world.”⁽⁷⁾